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Travels and lessons

2 Feb

The Lord has been good to us.  He is always good, but through my human eyes sometimes I perceive Him as good when a desire is filled, or a trial has been put behind me..

Oh how faithless I am, but He is always faithful.

2015 was a huge year, so huge I hardly had time to chronicle it.  2016 started off with a trip to Florida and a much needed surgery for my husband… A trial and a gift..sometimes the trial shadowed the gift..

While we were gone my adopted mother fell, had emergency surgery, and is now in a nursing home, the very last place she ever wanted to be.  A trial, a sore trial, my heart breaks for her, but rejoices in her sweet spirit and her resignation to the Lord of her life..She continues to teach me as she goes through her trials..

Airboat ride with very generous friends..a desire of a life time..any one remember Flipper???  Time discovering with family..home education at it’s best…and time reconnecting with family..Joys..beauty..

The richness in life is contained in the relationships, in the giving of oneself to others..sharing your hearts, joys, sorrows, fears, victories..

Reminds me of a favorite hymn:

When we walk with the Lord in the light of His Word

what a glory He sheds on our way.

When we do His good will, He abides with us still and with ALL who will trust and obey..

The light of His word..

Love the Lord your God with all your heart soul mind and strength, and Love your neighbor as yourself..

I have always wanted to be accepted, to be loved no matter what..God loves me..and in giving love to others, I have received much much more than I have given..

The Love of the Father is manifested in that while we were yet sinners, Christ died for us..Such love..such love

But God commendeth his love toward us, in that, while we were yet sinners, Christ died for us. Romans 5:8

first was from my heart, where His Spirit has graciously taken up residence, and the second is the actual, word for word, from the King James version of the Holy Bible.

I ramble..but that happens when I am filled with wonder..

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Musings on Machine Embroidery…

14 Jul

I have just been so thankful for my Esante embroidery machine.

A couple of years ago when I got this machine from Linda at Domestic Sewing Center in Warren, Ohio I was wanting an embroidery machine but wasn’t really able to afford it.

We have worked hard to pay this machine off and are still paying, but the things we can do on it bless us and others so much.

Here are some things we have been able to do…

A gift at a recent baby shower…Olivia actually copied the embroidery machine flowers and hand stitched them herself on the shoes!

Personalized baby bloomers…a custom order for a grandma…

These big sister/little sister tee’s ( I know the girls are much sweeter than the shirts! 🙂

And this detailed quilt, all done ” in the hoop” on our machine..  We are not sure whether to use it as a quilt or take the blocks apart for pillows, table runners, bed scarfs, etc.  I actually have it apart again now waiting for the final decision.

The children all helped with this they like to run the machine and see the patterns being stitched out.  We used this as an art lesson in our home education program for this summer.  I am very pleased with how it turned out for them.

Thank you Linda and all at Domestic Sewing Center for our Esante!

Good Morning…

5 Mar

Good Morning can be taken many ways!

Today I woke up semi refreshed after many days of waking up not rested!  For whatever reason my sleep has not been enough to rest me.

So, on the tired mornings, Good Morning can be almost obnoxious, when I am tempted to answer grouchily, “what is good about this morning?”

But if I look at it from the view of the speaker, they are just greeting me with gladness, so I should be upset that they are happy to see me?

Yesterday, at church, the Sunday school lesson was on the book of James in the New Testament.  That was an encouraging study.  Reminding me of how much God cares how I use my tongue.  And that how I use my tongue is an indicator of my walk with Jesus.  Ouch!  (a good ouch!)

So many times Jesus says, to not fear, to be at peace, to rest.  I need to rest in His love for me and as He has loved me when I am unlovable, I need to extend that to others, my husband and children first!   It’s easy to be nice to people in public!  It’s too easy to not be nice to our family!

So, because He loves me.  Because He gave His life to save me from my sinful self. Because He is preparing a place for me and all His bride, it is a good morning!

Thank you for your free gift to us.  Help us to walk worthy of that gift! Amen!

Tidbits..

21 Feb

This morning there was a gorgeous sunrise!  The birds were singing this morning.

Spring is coming, hope renewed, longer days, more light, these are happy thoughts!

We, Olivia, Victoria, and I are gearing up for a spring give-away.  We just can’t decide what it is going to be!  Stay tuned, our goal is to get it announced by the end of this week!

We have been making hair things, Victoria is the queen of hair bows and accessories, and Olivia and I and our little K are trying to glean from her wisdom.

We will never have her gifted fingers.  But, we can all benefit from her talent.

My morning thoughts of God this morning keep coming back to perseverance, waiting, patience.

I must rely on Him.  Wait for Him in everything…even for strength to accomplish the next thing.  Or for understanding.  Or direction.  Fill in the blank.

I learned from the devotional passage I read that patience is an active positive waiting.  Knowing that the result will be God’s best!  Wow, that is backwards from what I’ve got patience defined as in my mind.   I’ve always rendered it enduring.  Melancholy tendencies showing up here!

God’s Best.  All knowing, all loving, all powerful, all wise, my creator.  He knows what is best.

Baby steps.  This child of God is learning to walk.  Thankful, Oh so Thankful for His patience with me!

Blue, Vitamin D??…

9 Feb

I am feeling the need to be honest this morning.  Not that I’m not honest usually.

But normally in the name of encouragement, I prefer my posts to be encouraging!

I struggle severely with depression.  I am sure it is a chemical thing.  My mother had very similar problems, although we were never told much about it.

The Lord is my strength and my song He also has become my salvation.

I have to, some times moment by moment ask for strength or help.  I feel like a failure a LOT because I am not Mrs. Happy and Cheerful!  This past Sunday some one told me ” don’t be an Eyore”  Wow! that hit me between the eyes!

I am not able to go to the Doctor for various reasons, one being finances, the other being a deep seated abhorrance of drugs.  Another being, I believe my Lord, knows all about this and He is allowing this for my good and growth.

He truly is faithful to me and has brought me through many terrible days.  He loves me and all His children, and His grace IS sufficient.  My desire to be bubbly and cheerful is not what He has for me right now.

This morning I was lead to read in Colossians 4.  Verse 4 says Rejoice in the Lord alway: and again I say Rejoice.

Verse 6 , Be careful for nothing; but in every thing by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known unto God. 7. And the peace of God, which passeth all understanding, shall keep your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus.

Verse 8, Finally, bretheren, whatsoever things are true, whatsoever things are honest, whatsoever things are just, whatsoever things are pure, whatsoever things are lovely, whatsoever things are of good report; if there be any virtue, and if there be any praise, think on these things.

Verse 4 tells me to rejoice. And I endeavor to do so when I can and in obedience. For example the sun is shining today, Thank you Lord!

Also, my world isn’t THE world, even though it is the world I happen to live in.  So, I can rejoice in what God is doing for and in others.

I am thankful for verse 6, I can go to God with each problem big or small. I can go to Him with my feelings of failure and inability.  And verse 7 comes to pass.  He keeps my mind through Christ Jesus.  The fact that my children are happy and stable is a testimony to God’s awesome power.  In spite of me and my weakness He is faithful to my husband and I and our children.

He walks through our trials with us.  He carries us.  He is truly my all in all.

He must increase, I must decrease.

My homework is verse 8. Think on these things…  I must take time and make an effort to think on the things He directs me to think on.

My almost 10 year old.  Why should I be discouraged with people like this around?

Children are a heritage from the Lord..

8 Feb

My son came down to the office with this hat and these sunglasses on.  What a gift!

What a blessing! To be in the office at our home operated business, checking morning e-mails and have this little bundle of blessing come in and say “look mommy!”

Children are a gift from God, and I’m so thankful for my husband who works so hard to allow me the privilege to be home raising and training them, and to be on hand when they come up with these funny costumes!!! 🙂

This and that…

12 Sep

Last week was a tough one, a good one, but a tough one.  Mommy was sick, that is tough.  My biggest battle is with myself, and not feeling like I’m worth much unless I’m producing.  I have the knowledge in my head that those are wrong feelings and thoughts but they are there and have to be dealt with none the less!

The Lord blessed us with orders last week which added to my feeling of inadequacy, but on Saturday I rose up and got a few things done.  Olivia and Victoria both shelled things, that is what we call it when they serge the basic garment and I put a lot of the finishing touches on them.

We were able to do a tolerably fair school week, because school can be done from a sitting position. 🙂

One of our sweetest customers sent a picture of her little dear in our ruffle pants and it is great to see our clothes being worn practically,  I love style, but equally love practicality…

Victoria made the little hair clip.  Victoria is definitely our hair girl! I should say young lady, Mommy is having trouble with adjustment to this new phase of life.

We have lots of sewing to do after school today and we also need to finish canning our tomatoes from the garden.  I must get on to the next thing, thinking about the list makes me a little faint at heart.  The best approach is to begin the approach!  Onward and upward, thank you Father for your strength for each new challenge, and now that I think about it the old and recurring ones.  You are so faithful to be there for your children.

Lord, I need help to embrace each place you take me through!